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Sunday, April 18th, 2010

Comments: 6 rocket fallsrockets fall on rocket falls.
Time:11:13 pm.
switching gears (internet web log gears, primarily, with a few cogs-of-life interspersed)...

http://grizzlygan.blogspot.com/

sounds like a cool idea, everyone should give it a shot

Friday, March 19th, 2010

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Subject:wow
Time:9:09 am.
i would write in this more, but i don't usually have anything to complain about.

so, positives! :

getting a new scooter today, hah! http://www.flyscooters.com/scooters/ilbello150
it's the yellow/orange (magnolia? lol) and cream one. my old one died on me so i've been biking/busing the trek to school for a month or so. i can't wait to rock the shit out of this thing.

jesse and shela visited last week, it was wonderful. more of yall need to come out here! all you need to pay for is the plane ticket and drinks (and some food i guess, but we can cook and grill the whole time). i have plenty of space at my house and an air mattress and occasionally an extra room since my roommates leave often enough. no excuses, i'd even help foot the bill for the flight if you really needed it.

i miss and love everyone. allison indirectly (or maybe directly) called me out with her post a while ago--i suck at keeping in touch. it's nothing personal, i just never use my phone unless i have to, or unless you call me. it's no excuse, either, but whatevs, it is what it is. ily everyone lol

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last final today. can't wait for break. shea's coming in tonight! and jad on monday! (sunday? i don't even know lols) school is so hard, but i love it. i'm sampling calcified sea sponges to see how the indian ocean has changed over the last few centuries, and how the pacific has influenced that change. and i get paid pretty well, too, which helps out a lot.

can't procrastinate any longer, gotta get it together. hope yall are wonderful. i'll be back in the summer at some point for a week ish and i better see everyone. i have no idea when yet, but you know, this summer sometime. in the meantime, come visit me!

<3 gan

Friday, October 9th, 2009

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Time:12:24 pm.
Mood:OMFG.
if all goes according to plan, this will be my new whip by the end of the day.



edit: OMG I FEEL LIKE ALLISON RIGHT NOW I'M SO EXCITED I FEEL LIKE I'M GONNA BURST I CAN'T HANDLE IT O.M.G.

EDIT EDIT: OMG GOT IT LOL

Sunday, September 13th, 2009

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Time:6:52 pm.
First of all, San Diego is pretty amazing.

Second first of all, yall should come live with me for October. Here's a small sampling of some shows I need to hit up:

09/28 - The Dodos/The Ruby Suns
10/01 - Daedelus
10/02 - Elvis Perkins
10/07 - A Hawk and a Hacksaw
10/09 - ...And You Will Know Us by the Trail Of Dead
10/15 - Passion Pit
10/16 - Yo La Tengo
10/17 - The Black Heart Procession
10/17 - Gogol Bordello/Apostle of Hustle
10/20 - Conor Oberst/M. Ward*
10/21 - Grizzly Bear
10/22 - Why?
10/24 - The Low Anthem
10/26 - William Elliott Whitmore
10/30 - Le Loup
10/30 - Dirty Projectors
11/01 - Melt Banana
11/08 - Chuck Ragan
11/12 - Russian Circles

More than anything this is so I don't forget, but pretty unreal. Living in a real city is not something I'm used to, I think I'm going to get spoiled.

*I'm a scientist, I like to use footnotes. Here's the bio for this show: An Evening With Monsters of Folk: Conor Oberst, Jim James, M Ward and Mike Mogis will be a 2 1/2 hour musical event showcasing brand new songs from the forthcoming album as well as songs fans have come to enjoy from their respective Bright Eyes, My Morning Jacket and M Ward catalogues - @ Spreckels Theatre 7pm All Ages.

Apparently they made a folk band together? Sounds pretty rad.

Wednesday, August 12th, 2009

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Time:11:20 pm.
ooooooooooooooomg omg omg omg omg omg.

Sunday, May 31st, 2009

Comments: 2 rocket fallsrockets fall on rocket falls.
Time:9:21 pm.
can i just go back to sophomore year please?

Wednesday, May 6th, 2009

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Subject:ugh
Time:4:23 pm.
edit:

jk. the commencement committee is hooking me up with a new set. thanks though guyz!

Sunday, April 19th, 2009

Comments: 3 rocket fallsrockets fall on rocket falls.
Time:1:02 pm.
http://www.weather.com/outlook/homeandgarden/schoolday/tenday/USCA0982?from=36hr_topnav_schoolday

unreal.

Tuesday, February 24th, 2009

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Time:1:29 am.
i cannot wait to go to san diego.

Tuesday, February 17th, 2009

Comments: 3 rocket fallsrockets fall on rocket falls.
Time:7:35 pm.
in the spirit of all of this recent livejournal activity...

i am absolutely terrified and so excited to graduate and go to grad school. pending myself getting into columbia, i'm most likely going to be living in the city or in san diego. they're both my top choices and both great schools for oceanography type work, so it's really going to come down to a decision based on location and, more loosely, potential advisors. i can't wait to leave troy next wednesday to go visit san diego. i'm ready for something new, wherever that may be.

i feel a very drastic and much needed lifestyle change coming on soon, even before graduation. i'm slipping into a rut that i don't want to get stuck in.

more importantly, though, who wants to go to hartford this weekend to celebrate allison day??????

Sunday, February 10th, 2008

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Time:9:46 pm.
you give me so much hope. but i really need this right now.

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Time:5:29 pm.
deltaCollapse )

Monday, February 4th, 2008

Time:6:31 pm.
this is the hardest thing i've ever had to do in my life. i want to write so much but i don't know what to write. all i can think of saying is how much i love you and how much i wish you didn't need to do this but that i do understand. you really are the girl of my dreams and i just don't want you to ever leave me. i don't even feel like i exist anymore. i've never cried so much in my life. why does everything remind me of you? why can't this be easier? why am i so emotional all of the time?

i wish i could hate you for this but you don't deserve an ounce of hate from anyone. especially from me. god i just hope everything works out. i know that one way or another everything will, but i just want you back so badly. you really are my best friend here and even if we don't stay together i never want to lose that, but it's so hard to just be friendly for now, as much as i would like to try to. i love talking and hanging out with you, but it's so hard to get used to it just as friends.

i really don't want to make any of this public but it feels so much better to write it down. i think i'm gonna start a paper journal, i've always meant to.




i feel so broke up, i wanna go home.
i want you to come back home.

Friday, January 25th, 2008

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Time:6:21 pm.
I just wrote the longest, most heartfelt letter I think I will ever write in my life, and then realized it would be awful to post it on here. I don't even feel like I should be posting this. I still want to give the letter to you, babe, but I don't know if that's the right thing to do yet. I definitely will in due time, though. Maybe I should when I get back? I suppose I'll just have to feel it out.


Anyways, for anyone that's curious, Morgan and I are taking a break. I'm not going to go into the details because I don't feel like complaining on here; I just really hope that everything works out, no matter how long it takes. You're the love of my life.

Wednesday, October 31st, 2007

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Time:2:56 am.
I miss getting high in BARH and talking about nothing while talking about absolutely everything.

I miss everything about high school.

I miss being three years old.

Wednesday, June 27th, 2007

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Time:12:28 am.
brb america

Tuesday, October 24th, 2006

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Time:3:16 am.
I'm leaving for California on Thursday for research. How surreal is that? I still don't really even believe it; I guess it'll just have to take about 9 hours of travel to get it through my skull.

I don't really know why I'm writing this. I don't have much on my mind, I've been incredibly calm recently. Calm almost to the point of indifference toward everything. Maybe it's the change of season; there's something about autumn that's really relaxing to me. I feel older. I know there's that banal analogy between autumn and old age, but I guess it's overused with good reason.

Maybe my mind is so full that I've just tuned everything out. Maybe I have so much to think about that I just haven't thought about anything. How can anyone possibly sort everything out that they think about? I don't think that's the case, but I haven't really encountered any emotional extremes recently, or even slight variations in my general disposition for that matter. I feel like I've just been existing; no more, no less. Just going through the motions. Maybe I just need some sort of change. In that case, California seems to have excellent timing. Five days of solid sunshine and 70 degree weather should be nice.


I can't help but wonder where my life is going.

Friday, July 21st, 2006

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Time:12:00 am.
Mood:aggravated.
How do you feel about yourselves?
What do you think about at night?
Do you ever wonder why you feel so empty sometimes?
So, so inexplicably incomplete?

I'm willing to bet that if you ever do feel it, then you just fucking shrug it off like you do your entire existence. Maybe you should wake up and realize what's going on around you. No, not that people are being murdered and mistreated everywhere you turn; and no, not even that there's a bullshit war going on 3 000 miles away from us (albeit both very closely related consequences to what I'm about to become increasingly volatile upon).

You're being eaten alive.
Eaten alive by a socio-machine of your own fabrication.

And what's more is that you don't even know it--you're so goddamn numb to anything and everything. You can't even take a minute out of your oh so busy day to pause and take in the incredible beauty around you (or what little is left of it). You're so caught up in making more and more money so that you can buy shinier, fancier things that you absolutely do not need and probably don't even care to own--things you won't even remember existed 10 years from now. And the worst part about all of it is that you don't realize any of this.

But why should you? These ideas of capitalism and materialism have been instilled into your minds since birth. You don't know any better--and as much as I'd love to blame you for it, I can't course myself into doing so. The problem does not lie directly with you, but you are a direct result of the problem. Today's society is fueled by greed. It is a living, breathing disease, hellbent on consuming anything it possibly can. Thanks to its imminent influence over most everyone today, you'll stop at nothing so that you can acquire more money and more power just to satisfy your ephemeral desires. And while satisfaction may seem to come at a low cost (even though that new Benz you just landed ran you 70 Gs, you earned it, man, right?), you don't realize what's going on behind the direct relation of money and prize.

You don't realize that, in order to feed your desire, 1% of the world's total rainforest is being destroyed each year (but those are way the fuck down in like Brazil and shit so why should you care?). You hear about global warming but think "Shit, what's a couple more degrees?" And that's if you actually even believe it's fucking happening. You don't realize that the world's total oil and natural gas supply is going to run out within the next one to two hundred years (along with those rainforests that don't really even matter) because of our insatiable need to do things that are completely unnecessary. You don't realize that the world's population is going to nearly double in the next 40 some years, and the bulk of this population increase will be in the so aptly titled 3rd-world countries (which means an incredible burst in the usage of dirty, non-replenishable fuels, and of course the need to feed about 5 billion more people, but that's nothing). And that's if our civilization can even last 40 more years at the rate it's going now.

The end of the world is coming, but not by some bullshit armageddon that the so-called good book speaks of. It's coming via the hands of our very own beloved species.

Well, fuck.

No, let me rephrase that.

FUCK.
DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
JUST FUCKING TELL SOMEONE THAT ISN'T AWARE.
ANYTHING THAT CAN POSSIBLY MAKE EVEN THE SMALLEST DIFFERENCE.




I hope that at least one of you read this and understood it.
I hope even more that it may have enlightened one of you to the slightest hint that something is wrong and needs to be changed.

Sunday, April 2nd, 2006

Comments: 9 rocket fallsrockets fall on rocket falls.
Time:2:21 pm.
Goodbye, Winter.
And don't let the door smack you in the ass on your way out, you asshole.


Why hello there, Paradise, won't you please come in and stay a while?
BECAUSE BABY, YOU FEEL SO GOOD

Thursday, March 9th, 2006

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Time:7:20 pm.
You know, you're still worth a hundred million dollars to me.

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